Beauty

So, scientifically speaking, beauty is defined by having a proportional face. According to science, if one has a proportional face, that person is classified as being beautiful. So, scientifically speaking, I am beautiful. But according to society and Melrose High School, I am not beautiful. I am an outcast. I do not fit in because I do not wear Uggs, or The North Face. I am an outcast because I don't go to parties and play beer pong, or smoke blunts in my free time. I don't sleep with a different guy every week. I don't have a perfect body. I am not beautiful because I had a baby at seventeen years old with the only person I have ever slept with, the love of my life, my fiancé. Because of this, I am an ugly slut. I, however, disagree. Yeah, I gained thirty-four pounds during my pregnancy, and sure, now I have ugly stretch marks and a little bit of flab, but I'm in pre-pregnancy jeans. I'm almost six weeks postpartum, and I was in skinny jeans at two weeks.

What I don't understand is why society is under the impression that to be beautiful, you need to be a size two jeans with an eighteen inch waist, and a D cup. Why are blue eyes always better than brown eyes? Or hazel eyes? Or green eyes? When we were filling out our superlative forms for the yearbook, I jokingly told a friend to put me down for best eyes. I have hazel eyes that are constantly changing color, going from green to brown to blue, and even to a yellowish color. Sometimes they are several different colors at once. So anyway, I told my friend to put me down, and he looks at me and says "Um, you have brown eyes" as if brown eyes are so dull, right? I said, "No, I have hazel eyes, and I think they're beautiful." He then brushed off my comment and said, "Who do we know that has nice blue eyes?"

Why does it seem like blond hair, blue eyes, is the only form of beauty? Why not brown hair and brown eyes? Or brown hair and blue eyes? Green eyes and red hair? None of this is beautiful? Why is tanned skin better than light skin?

Why is a person's beauty only classified by their physical appearance? Do beautiful personalities just not exist anymore? Or are they just no longer acknowledged? I know so many girls who have the most beautiful souls, and the most beautiful eyes, but because they are not "popular", they are often regarded as ugly. Social status determines beauty. I am classified as a bookworm, drama geek, and nerd. And yet, modeling agencies have asked for me. I briefly modeled for The American Mall Model Search, and the host of the runway show told me I was a beauty, the most beautiful one there, actually. But I don't believe it. Why is that?

Because you can tell a girl she's beautiful a few times and she'll believe it for a while. But if you tell her she's ugly once, she'll believe it for a lifetime.

So, the next time you think about calling a girl ugly because she's not a size two, a D cup, or blond haired and blue eyed, just think. Think about the spirit that you'll be breaking. And ask yourself: Do I want to be responsible for her heartache?