Oh, Really?

So I've been doing some thinking. I don't know what about. I've just been sitting here, marinating in my boredom, wondering what will happen to me in the future. I haven't had the best life out there, as a matter of fact, I'd describe it as, well, shitty up until recently. Once I got away from all the crap going on with my dad, I got a lot better. But I still wonder what will become of me, as I suppose most rising High School seniors do. I've had college in my sights for my whole life, so I know that's definitely in my future, but I'm afraid I won't get into a good one. I guess it's my pessimistic side taking over, which kinda reminds me of the occasional easy blushing that I get betrayed by due to my strong Irish nature...even though it's nothing like being a pessimist....